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hmm something is wrong wit me, i am starting to think alot and too much, seriously my mind is on overdrive thinking alot, and i guess its a good thing but its gettin freaky..

I yesterday for a good three hours just stood and watched the stars, i felt this longing to want to help people, i always wanted to adopt kids but yesterday i told myself i should not..we adopt one or two and we shower them with our love but what about the hundreds more that are left with so much hopes and dreams..Whatever time i have i will give it to these kids and i mean it..

i know i want to help these kids and maybe its just because i love kids but i realli want to do something but as i sat thinkin i only have the desire but do not have both the means nor the financial capability to do anything, i really wanna meet the grand puppeteer have so much that i do not understand..why does he create the thoughts that we cant do anything about...

If u want to feel real love there are so many places that can afford it, family, friends, but there are so many alternatives as well dogs, helping people and most importantly kids, a kid loves with his whole heart, no grudges, no enmity, no pride, and no hatred for anyone...everyone is a friend and the worlds a game...the joy of a kids smile is in pure sincerity, their laughter, their stuttered words, their adorable tumbles and the various things that kids do...

but sadly some of these little angels sit in vigil hoping someone would love them back, show them the little attention they need, watch them ride their first bike, see their grades, praise them for colouring well, to play with them...so many times we were quick to tell how no one is here for me and all but we always had someone there for us, be it a fren a family member or just someone who bothered to ask how are u but do these kids have even this?

I realli dunno why i am thinkin like this or where did these ideas come from but i know that we are not here to jus work, eat and sleep, we are humans meant to care for one another and help one another, i know that i may not be the richest or have the most time to help out but i will do my best to make a difference..to quote this old story where this little boy kept throwing starfishes back into sea despite so there bein so many, he was told that its impossible to save all the starfish to which the little boy said but at least the starfish i threw in have a second chance...hmm i may not be able to help all but i'll help as much as i can..if my time on this world comes to an end i want to go knowing i have at least someones life a little better...

Lastly i am really lost in how i can go about helping these kids, i have the passion but do not know how to go about with what i wanna do...i will search on my own but if any of you guys wanna join me or know how i can do it, plz lemme know ya? thanks alot and make a difference for someone